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Text; un: smokinbomb

[bakudan_bambino]

Sorry for being mean the other day, Cas.

I still like you.

[messenger]

it's ok

i like you too

[bakudan_bambino]

Do you want to talk about it? About what happened?

Sometimes text is easier.

[messenger]

do you think it would help?

i don't understand what i did wrong. or why you think i'm lying

[bakudan_bambino]

help what?

I don’t think you’re lying. I remember you telling me ‘that’s not what I meant’ a couple times and I felt frustrated

I’d say something in an attempt to be helpful but it didn’t feel like it went that way at all

I don’t want you to feel misunderstood

[messenger]

our misunderstanding.

i didn't know how to explain myself. i still don't know. except to say that i'm not human. things are different for me.

[bakudan_bambino]

just because you don’t know how doesn’t mean you can’t try

I don’t know how to sexually dominate people. I just try things and use what works while abandoning what doesn’t

I know you’re not human but you’re still my friend

And I want to help

Ngl you saying the drink was the help and not me kind of… hurt my feelings… not that you said I wasn’t helpful but…

Sometimes I feel like all I’m good for is my money or my designation.

[messenger]

i shouldn't have said that. i didn't mean it that way. i didn't care about the drink. i was just happy you wanted to see me.

[bakudan_bambino]

yeah you wanted my company

And just because I think you need help doesn’t mean it’s okay to be offering when you don’t ask.

I shouldn’t have been pushing so much.

[messenger]

i appreciate that you want to help me, gokudera

[ but some things can't be fixed. ]

[bakudan_bambino]

You know it's because I want you to be happy, right? Because you're my friend, and I like and care about you.

[he'd rather assist someone broken if he can't fix them. Some things don't mend.]

[messenger]

i know
but it can be painful to help someone and watch them stay the same

i know you were hurt when i said the alcohol was the help
will you also be hurt if your attemps to help me don't change anything?

[bakudan_bambino]

Maybe

but maybe it's also wrong that I try to change you

perhaps it's better if I focus on changing other things

[messenger]

like what?

[bakudan_bambino]

your obstacles

[messenger]

and what would those be?

[bakudan_bambino]

Don't know. Guess I'll just find out what may trouble you and do my best to stop it.

I can't do anything to help if you are the source of your troubles.

[messenger]

i usually am

[bakudan_bambino]

Then I am no help

[messenger]

but there are still things you can help me with
i don't know anything about the city

[bakudan_bambino]

but you're hardly ever in the city

[messenger]

well, it's hard to travel without a contract or a chaperone
especially since i can't fly

[bakudan_bambino]

Maybe you ought to focus on getting a contract BEFORE coming to me about the city.

[messenger]

im trying

[bakudan_bambino]

ok