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[messenger]

this is castiel. leave your message here.

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[messenger]

i've died several times, but i don't remember what comes after
i only know we don't go to heaven

well, it's like i said. most of us don't feel much of anything
i'm grateful that the life i've led has given me the chance me to experience more than that
but the mistakes i made are too great for me to allow myself to be happy

[bakudan_bambino]

maybe there is some other place you go?

I don’t know if the things from your world are true in mine

Or even how much of it is true or relevant to this place

But what you have been through is incredible, it seems…

Do you want to talk about your mistakes?

[messenger]

i'm sure all our worlds are very different
there was an alternate universe i sent my friends to once, briefly, where their lives were a television show, and there was no magic, no gods, no supernatural beings whatsoever
i almost wish they had stayed there, sometimes
i think they would have been happier

but it's not normally easy to travel between universes. however the person or people responsible for bringing us here did it, they must have immense power

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no

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maybe another time

[bakudan_bambino]

That sounds interesting...

Yeah, I bet. They bring gods here and all sorts of other magical incredible people...

Alright, is there more you want to talk about? Anything else I can lend insight on? I ought to get back to my wallowing.

[messenger]

why are you wallowing?

[bakudan_bambino]

I've lost someone so... talking with you has made me feel better. At least it's taken my mind off it for a while.

[messenger]

im sorry. we could talk more?

[ not that castiel is normally the most talkative. but he knows a lot of things that you can rattle on about. ]

[bakudan_bambino]

No, that's alright.

I don't know what to talk about.

[messenger]

um

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do you like alcohol

[bakudan_bambino]

Honestly?

I've been drinking for days since he left so I'm sick of it at the moment.

[messenger]

ah
maybe you could try something from the dispensary
they have some... interesting drinks

[bakudan_bambino]

Why would I do that?

[messenger]

for a non-alcohol related distraction?
some of them can even change your anatomy

[bakudan_bambino]

Oh

What's wrong with my current anatomy?

cn: nsfw discussion, discussion of sex swap

[messenger]

nothing
but i like to have a vagina sometimes
a... change of pace can serve as a diversion, can't it?
or you could get high instead of drinking

Re: cn: nsfw discussion, discussion of sex swap

[bakudan_bambino]

I used a potion to have one once but I don’t think anyone wants me having one so it wouldn’t see much use.

Can’t believe my angel friend is suggesting I do drugs

[messenger]

huh. really? having an extra hole can be an advantage when it comes to sex
i don't really have a preference when it comes to genitalia. my own or my partners'

well, it's not a sin
or at least it's not a sin that anyone actually cares about

[bakudan_bambino]

never heard that before
Yeah I like my partner before I like their genitals.

It's what makes the loss harder, maybe. There are reminders everywhere...

Thanks, though.

[messenger]

you haven't?

you're welcome. and i'm sorry.

[bakudan_bambino]

Right

You don't have anything to be sorry for.

I appreciate you trying to help me.

[messenger]

[ he doesn't feel like he has much he can actually offer, but at least it's something, right? ]

i'll see you again soon, gokudera.

[ maybe they won't? but he doesn't know how to end a conversation like this. normally, he just sort of... stops talking. that doesn't feel appropriate in this instance. ]

[bakudan_bambino]

Yeah I'll be looking forward to it

thanks for talking with me