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a few days after tea time

[deinoswitch]

[Dionysus finds himself a bit frustrated with himself- he's long since gotten into the habit of not really forming connections to people, for his own sanity and very much also theirs. He doesn't know if his recent attachment to Phaidros is affecting this or if it's something in the city; either seems possible. Regardless, it seems his mind has latched on that angel he met, whose god apparently made them and then eventually abandoned them, and he can't make it sit right with him however he twists it.

And, since he absolutely does not trust Castiel to tell him if anything went wrong (again), he will ask a bird if it would mind taking him with it to pay the man a little visit. Which is how Castiel winds up with a little robin at his window, watching him curiously.]

[messenger]

[ the little bird will discover a number of things in its time by castiel's window, chief among them being that the godless angel spends most of his time laying fully clothed in bed, doing nothing of note. though, occasionally, he gets out his city-ordained phone to look at the screen for a while, or even more occasionally, gets up and moves around the small apartment.

he never bothers to make himself tea, or get lunch or dinner. nor does he sleep (if the little robin watches long enough to notice such things).

eventually, though— inevitably, castiel will notice the visitor at his window. wildlife is rare in the lower city, after all. ]

Hello? Are you lost?

[ castiel's brow knits. suddenly, he begins to search his pockets. when he comes up with nothing, he looks disappointed. ]

Ah... sorry. I don't have any food.

[deinoswitch]

[oh!! you can talk to him!! that's exciting. hello, not-human. the one from the trees wanted to see how you are doing. it's ok he doesn't need food he gave him some before he came down here and what are you doing?]

[messenger]

The one from the trees?

[ it takes a few moments for castiel to put two and two together.

but for everyone he's met, there's only one person he can imagine would be able to command— or ask— a creature for their help. ]

I'm... just... [ what is he doing? ] ...That's a surprisingly difficult question to answer.

[deinoswitch]

[yes!!

why? the bird tilts its little head at castiel. do you not know what you're doing?]

[messenger]

[ it's funny. he's pretty sure the robin doesn't mean it like that, but, ]

No.

I don't think I do.

[deinoswitch]

[the little bird hops closer to him. there there, not human. it looked like you were laying down. humans sleep laying down, right? do not-humans sleep like that? were you sleeping?]

[messenger]

No, I don't sleep. I would like to.

[ he offers a smile. he wonders if the little bird understands what it means. ]

You must sleep comfortably, under your wing.

[deinoswitch]

[it is very comfy. have you tried? sleeping is nice. why don't you sleep?

Dionysus, meanwhile, is listening to this whole thing, being both a.) charmed and b.) worried about Castiel's........ everything.]

[messenger]

[ he SHOULD be worried. he should be. everyone should be. ]

I used to have wings like that, but I don't anymore.

[ it's not why he doesn't sleep, but he's not going to confuse poor robin by trying to explain it. in his experience, they're very straightforward creatures. it's something to admire. ]

[deinoswitch]

[you don't have your wings anymore?? that's very sad. robin will try to give him a little snuggle. :(

Dionysus is wondering why the fuck he had wings???]

[messenger]

[ castiel won't want to move too much, because they're such delicate creatures, but he touches robin's little head with his fingertips, feeling slightly self-conscious. ]

Thank you. That's very kind.

[ guess you'll just have to ask him the next time you see him, huh? 😊 ]

Could I ask you a favor?

[deinoswitch]

[yes yes! he will do his best! what does not human friend need?]

Text; un: smokinbomb

[bakudan_bambino]

Sorry for being mean the other day, Cas.

I still like you.

[messenger]

it's ok

i like you too

[bakudan_bambino]

Do you want to talk about it? About what happened?

Sometimes text is easier.

[messenger]

do you think it would help?

i don't understand what i did wrong. or why you think i'm lying

[bakudan_bambino]

help what?

I don’t think you’re lying. I remember you telling me ‘that’s not what I meant’ a couple times and I felt frustrated

I’d say something in an attempt to be helpful but it didn’t feel like it went that way at all

I don’t want you to feel misunderstood

[messenger]

our misunderstanding.

i didn't know how to explain myself. i still don't know. except to say that i'm not human. things are different for me.

[bakudan_bambino]

just because you don’t know how doesn’t mean you can’t try

I don’t know how to sexually dominate people. I just try things and use what works while abandoning what doesn’t

I know you’re not human but you’re still my friend

And I want to help

Ngl you saying the drink was the help and not me kind of… hurt my feelings… not that you said I wasn’t helpful but…

Sometimes I feel like all I’m good for is my money or my designation.

[messenger]

i shouldn't have said that. i didn't mean it that way. i didn't care about the drink. i was just happy you wanted to see me.

[bakudan_bambino]

yeah you wanted my company

And just because I think you need help doesn’t mean it’s okay to be offering when you don’t ask.

I shouldn’t have been pushing so much.

[messenger]

i appreciate that you want to help me, gokudera

[ but some things can't be fixed. ]

[bakudan_bambino]

You know it's because I want you to be happy, right? Because you're my friend, and I like and care about you.

[he'd rather assist someone broken if he can't fix them. Some things don't mend.]

[messenger]

i know
but it can be painful to help someone and watch them stay the same

i know you were hurt when i said the alcohol was the help
will you also be hurt if your attemps to help me don't change anything?