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[bakudan_bambino]

I hope no one ever does.

Sunglasses wouldn't work? They don't obscure enough, right?

[messenger]

no, they don't
the light has to be completely blocked
and an angel who is trying to do you harm intentionally can't be warded off just by shutting your eyes
it's only a defense against accidental discharge

[bakudan_bambino]

Why would an angel intentionally try to do harm to a human?

[messenger]

[ ah. that's interesting. the other castiels must not have spoke of this. ]

im actually a... bit of an outcast because of my interest in humans
well, there are a handful of angels who want to do their duty to protect humanity
but most of them resent you, im sorry to say

and my... romantic interest in a human man is considered inappropriate at best

[bakudan_bambino]

[Most conversations he’s had with Castiel don’t seem to make it to this point.]

why do they resent us?

[messenger]

[ castiel finds it easier to focus on the dissemination of facts, versus personal discussion. maybe that's the way to go, with gokudera. with everyone. ]

we were God's first children
you're His favorites

[bakudan_bambino]

[Things would be much easier if Hayato didn’t take so much personally]

Oh so they’re jealous

[messenger]

pretty much

God gave you the Earth and the sky and free will to do with it all as you please
and we were allowed none of it

an angel who used to be part of my garrison spoke as though you didn't deserve the gifts He gave you
it's not how i feel, but it's a common enough sentiment

[bakudan_bambino]

yeah i know you’re an exception

Kinda fucked up and petty to be mad at those who don’t know. Not like we choose the lives we’re given.

Some of us don’t even live long enough to enjoy the ‘gifts’ we’re given.

I guess I’d be mad at God

[messenger]

i don't disagree
but i also have to point out that you have an afterlife
which is something we're also not allowed

some of them are
but what can they do against God?

[bakudan_bambino]

well you don’t have lives to lose, right?

You basically have… forever

Guess it just depends on how content you’d be to live in anger

[messenger]

we can still die
actually, most of us are dead
though this is a recent development
but i would say the essence of what you're saying is true

if the angels were content, both heaven and earth would be better off
i don't think any of us are capable of that

[bakudan_bambino]

So you'd never really know an afterlife, would you? I'm alive in my world. I've only died in Duplicity.

Capable of what? Being content? Even though you don't have the intensity of human emotions?

[messenger]

i've died several times, but i don't remember what comes after
i only know we don't go to heaven

well, it's like i said. most of us don't feel much of anything
i'm grateful that the life i've led has given me the chance me to experience more than that
but the mistakes i made are too great for me to allow myself to be happy

[bakudan_bambino]

maybe there is some other place you go?

I don’t know if the things from your world are true in mine

Or even how much of it is true or relevant to this place

But what you have been through is incredible, it seems…

Do you want to talk about your mistakes?

[messenger]

i'm sure all our worlds are very different
there was an alternate universe i sent my friends to once, briefly, where their lives were a television show, and there was no magic, no gods, no supernatural beings whatsoever
i almost wish they had stayed there, sometimes
i think they would have been happier

but it's not normally easy to travel between universes. however the person or people responsible for bringing us here did it, they must have immense power

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no

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maybe another time

[bakudan_bambino]

That sounds interesting...

Yeah, I bet. They bring gods here and all sorts of other magical incredible people...

Alright, is there more you want to talk about? Anything else I can lend insight on? I ought to get back to my wallowing.

[messenger]

why are you wallowing?

[bakudan_bambino]

I've lost someone so... talking with you has made me feel better. At least it's taken my mind off it for a while.

[messenger]

im sorry. we could talk more?

[ not that castiel is normally the most talkative. but he knows a lot of things that you can rattle on about. ]

[bakudan_bambino]

No, that's alright.

I don't know what to talk about.

[messenger]

um

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do you like alcohol

[bakudan_bambino]

Honestly?

I've been drinking for days since he left so I'm sick of it at the moment.

[messenger]

ah
maybe you could try something from the dispensary
they have some... interesting drinks

[bakudan_bambino]

Why would I do that?