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[venatoris]

Yeah. I'd even drink tea right now.

[ The honey is capped and set aside, and he reaches for Cas, moving to pull him into his lap. ]

I know you're cold. I wish our crap wasn't wet.

[messenger]

[ that's better. dean's lap is warm. even if his pants are wet too, he'll happily perch there, legs folded up, toes curled against his thigh, leaned against his chest. he can also enjoy looking at his face from very close in this position, although dean probably won't enjoy the scrutiny. ]

We should probably lay your clothes out, so they dry faster.

[venatoris]

Yeah, probably.

[ Cas feels good, but his jeans and boxers are soaked and it is pretty uncomfortable. He shuffles Cas back off him for a moment while he shimmies out of them, spreading them out beside him, then finally giving in and just peeling his shirt off too, the hem is damp. Once he's done, he's dragging Cas back into his lap for a cuddle. Body heat = warmth, after all. He and Benny learned that before they found Cas. ]

[messenger]

[ he perches next to dean while he watches him undress. they aren't that far from the edge of the wall, or the group of people working the rope and pulley system, but they're far enough, he supposes, for dean to be comfortable stripping. he's more concerned with following each glimpse of skin with his eyes than worrying about who might see them, though.

it's all the better when dean pulls him back in. their skin is hot where it touches, and he sighs. soaks it in for a few more moments before twisting, placing his arms around dean's shoulders to maximize skin contact between them. their chests touch where his shirt is still hanging open, unbuttoned. ]

[ruinously]

Better?

[ It's definitely a lot warmer and he's not wild about how close they are, but Cas is exhausted and cold so they're just gonna have to make do. ]

You feel cold.

[messenger]

A bit.

[ he is. and he's not used to dealing with it.

which is why he turns to face dean, swinging a leg over to straddle his lap, squeezing his thighs around his hips. he's not sure what the warmest position is— it would probably be better if they laid down together and curled up; they used to do that in purgatory, too. but if he puts his head down, he has a feeling he's going to fall asleep immediately.

and they can't stay here for that long. ]

[venatoris]

[ ngh. It's taking all of Dean's willpower not to get hard; it's not the time and especially not the place, and he seriously doubts their oil made it. ]

Is that warmer?

[ It had sure better be, because Dean's restraint is questionable at best. ]

[messenger]

I dunno.

[ it's about equally warm, he'd say. is that quantifiable? there's a little color coming back to his cheeks now that they're out of the knee-high water, anyway; and to other parts of him, as dean's heat leeches into his clammy skin. he unwinds his arms around dean's shoulders a moment, takes his wrists, and places his hands on his bare thighs— his palms are very warm, and frankly he doesn't know why they're not taking advantage of that. ]

I think.

[venatoris]

...Are you trying to get me riled up on purpose?

[ Dean's palms are warm against Cas' skin and he licks his lips, eyes dropping down to Cas' legs, his belly and cock that's right there. ]

[messenger]

[ he pauses for a moment, blank look on his face. then he follows dean's eyes down and it clicks— he blinks. ]

No. But we could—

[ y'know. ]

[venatoris]

[ He snorts, though he is kinda eyeballing Cas' cock, head tipped, then flicks a look over his shoulder. ]

We don't have anything.

[ oil wise, he means. ]

But I have an idea. Slide off me, legs spread.

[messenger]

Are you sure? I put it in your bag.

[ it's where he kept all their things. it wasn't like they had a drawer. and the bottle was small and made of thick glass, like the bottle of honey— if it hadn't been sturdy enough to survive the calamity, he wouldn't have found it.

still, with a somewhat dubious expression, he complies. he's not entirely sure if he wants him on his back or on his knees, still? ]

We could always do what we did the first time.

[venatoris]

Just lay back.

[ and think of England. He winks at Cas, reaches to put his palm between pecs and gently ease him back before moving to settle between his thighs.

It does look for a moment he’s going to fuck him, but then he wriggles down, hands on Cas’ thighs to push them open, then dropping down to lick a stripe from balls to the tip of his cock. ]

[messenger]

Dean.

[ his eyes follow dean, a note of hope there— until he moves down, further away from him. where the hell are you going? still, his hips lift when he dips his head between his legs and puts his mouth to him, a sound gasping out of his throat before he reaches down and pulls on dean's hair. ]

Why couldn't you— pick a position with more skin contact?

[ it's cold, all laid out on the ground like this. ]

[venatoris]

[ ow ]

...Because I wanted to do this.

[ obviously, he's never done it before. but fine.

Cas tugs on his hair and Dean crawls back up, face flushed in embarrassment but Cas has a point. He drapes himself on top of Cas and gropes for the duffle, then pauses. ]

Maybe we should find somewhere with a little more privacy..?

[messenger]

[ he loosens his grip. he knows if he explained to dean that he struggles with things that he doesn't immediately derive pleasure from, he would just get upset at him again— he still doesn't really think dean understood what he meant when he offered this in the first place.

he glances over dean's shoulder (there are people not that far away, granted) and begins to sit upright, hand on his arm. ]

... Yeah.

[ he doesn't really wanna be gawked at. ]

[venatoris]

[ He's back on his heels and to his feet, offering Cas a hand; it's been a nice reprieve to sit and eat what little they've got, but he really would prefer something a little more private considering they're both naked and Dean really doesn't want to put wet denim back on. ]

Here, [ he says, hand out, fingers wiggling to help him up. ] C'mon. My nuts are cold.

[messenger]

[ he lets dean help him up, slips back into his wet boots, tosses his boxers in the bag, and allows dean to lead the way while he's distracted by his thoughts, too tired not to let himself be. replaying the scene in his mind and wincing at his own brusqueness, feeling strange, and guilty, and curiously distant from dean in the moment.

there's a path of flattened grass that leads away from the edge of the cliff, formations of earth disturbing the immediate landscape. tikal had been on a plateau, and even though it fell, there are aspects of the surroundings that still reflect that. rocky outcroppings, and the like. they can hide behind one of those. ]

[venatoris]

[ Dean feels a little silly in nothing but his damp boots, flannel and coat draped over Cas' shoulders, and he's kinda chuckling to himself about it as they move. God, they must look a sight. ]

Oh man, rocks...think we can sun like lizards and warm up?

[messenger]

[ cas is trying not to think about how he looks; his pride can't take it. it's probably the first time since they've arrived that he truly misses his old clothes— he doesn't feel like himself. when he thinks about it, he realizes he doesn't feel particularly good at all, and not just physically. everything seems to have gone immediately back to normal, and he should be grateful, but something's not right. something's eating at him, and he can't name it.

he thought— he doesn't know. he doesn't know what he thought. he doesn't know what he expects from this situation. he doesn't know what he's supposed to do.

his attention snags when dean speaks, and he lifts his eyes from where they'd drifted toward the ground. ]

Uh... I dunno. Maybe?

[venatoris]

It's definitely a good spot to dry these clothes, that's for sure.

[ provided the sun is out, anyway.

He sets about rummaging in his duffle and spreading all of the soaked items (everything) out on the rocks, kicking his boots off and setting them up, too. It'll take forever to dry, but man he wants dry shoes. Ugh. ]

Hopefully it doesn't take forever for our stuff to dry out.

[messenger]

[ he helps dean pull the wet clothes from the bag and spread them out, kicking off his shoes in the meantime, pausing to sway every so often as his exhaustion catches up with him. the sun is flitting between the clouds, and it's on the cooler side today. the breeze making him just chilly enough to be uncomfortable. but they'll still dry faster there than they would on the grass.

he sits down on the edge of one of the rocks. ]

Dean, if you want— if you still want to do that. We can.

[venatoris]

[ They don't have a lot, but there's enough clothes in there to share for a little while, until they can get Cas some new stuff to wear. Besides, Dean kinda likes seeing Cas in his stuff.

He looks up at Cas and flashes a little smile as he arranges one of his shirts on the rock. ]

Do you want to? Didn't really get the feeling you wanted me down there.

[messenger]

[ cas chews his lip, hands folded in his lap, eyes on dean. he doesn't know how to explain how he's feeling, or whether it's a good idea to put these ideas out into the open. it'd be easier to fake it— he's sure he would enjoy himself once he got into it. how could he not? but he's so exhausted, he can't be bothered to try to keep up the charade for long enough for it to stop being a charade.

he looks down, not quite at himself, and frowns. ]

I'm feeling— self-conscious about this body.

[ not in the sense that there's anything wrong with it— it just doesn't feel like it belongs to him right now.

probably because it doesn't. it never has. ]

I can't... watch you without looking at it.

[venatoris]

[ He frowns a little, leaving the shirt where it is and picking his way over to Cas, leaning on the rock next to him. ]

Why?

[ It's a very nice body, and despite it belonging to Jimmy originally, Dean's kinda always thought Cas had sorta...reclaimed it. Jimmy's long gone, and God or whoever kept putting Cas back into it. That means something, right?

Maybe. Maybe not. It's not Dean's body so he doesn't really have any say. ]