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PLAYER

Name: Dmitri
Pronouns: he/him
Contact: I'm most likely to see it ASAP if you contact my discord @ hayyot.
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CHARACTER

Name: Castiel
Canon: Supernatural
Canonpoint: post-S5EP18 Point of No Return
Age: Castiel appears to be in his late twenties to mid thirties, though his chronological age is actually far, far older, as he's been alive at least since the first land-walking fish evolved. He's naive about human life, and emotionally stunted due to the Angels' rejection of and lack of experience with emotion, but he is fully an adult.

Powers & Abilities: Castiel has become effectively mortal after the events of S5EP18, however, he is still an angel, and still retains a few powers.

• We see that the alternate version of Castiel, from the episode S5EP04 The End, can tell that Dean is not from his proper timeline despite having been mortal for many years. When he first sees Dean, he exclaims that Dean is "not 'now' [Dean]".

• Most angels who have lost their powers retain their ability to hear Angel Radio, the angel's telepathic communication network. Anna is one such angel. Of course, this will be completely useless in game.

• Castiel would be capable of regaining his powers if he were to find more of his grace and ingest it. Castiel is also able to ingest another angel's grace and regain his powers through this method, though as the foreign grace wore off, it would eventually kill him.

• Because it's a knowledge check and not a power per se, Castiel will retain his knowledge of all Earthly languages.

• In SPN's universe, animals share a universal language, and Castiel can speak it.

QUESTIONS

1. What is their worst fear? Why do they fear it?
Castiel's worst fear is being useless.

His entire sense of self-worth is shaped around the tenant of being useful. Before losing faith in Season 5, his life was devoted to serving his father (the Abrahamic God) and he did so with great pride. Being in service of is such a basic aspect of his personality that it doesn't once change throughout the entirety of the series. Even the hedonistic alternate Castiel from S5EP04 serves under Dean, when Dean takes on the role of commander, and goes to his death without hesitation when ordered to do so. Further into the series, past Season 5, Castiel continues to apply himself to any issue he feels he has a responsibility to address, whether that be because it's a problem he caused; one he feels he, as an angel, is beholden to; or simply because he wishes to help his friends have a better life.

He doesn't engage in hobbies or pursue any personal interests. He has very few belongings and discards those he does have without much if any fanfare. He spends very little if any "down time" relaxing with his friends. He barely has any sort of personal life at all. He's devoted singularly to acting on behalf of the greater good, as he's desperate to uphold his own platonic ideal of what an "angel" should be. These ideas inform his entire worldview.

To break from them would be to deny his entire self, and compromise his sense of self, which is the primal source of his fear. But on a more basic level, it would also mean shirking one's duties. In Heaven, evading responsibility means punishment (ie. torture or death), and this is what Castiel has been taught since his creation. In fact, he even goes so far as to punish himself out of guilt for the transgressions he feels he's made later in the series in order to confirm to his ideals. So it could also be argued that his fear of being useless is a fear of experiencing pain— even self-inflicted pain.

Without some use to put himself toward, Castiel struggles to find any reason at all for being alive.

2. What kind of person could they love? Do they have any bonds already?
Castiel tends to love (romantically and platonically) those who are passionate, principled, and selfless. He also tends to love those who are particularly human— those who are flawed and even a little hedonistic, those who choose to revel in life.

Castiel loves humanity at large, despite and because of their imperfections, though from a distance. Due to being an angel, he sees his existence as necessarily separate from the mortal world, and doesn't emotionally engage with most people on the same level they might with him if given the chance, with the exception of his close friends (all of whom are personally involved with the supernatural world in some way). Dean Winchester, he is particularly — and romantically — attached to. Castiel is drawn in by Dean's desire to save humanity at any cost, rather than give in and allow Heaven and Hell to go to war, even if war means humanity will see paradise in the end. He rebels for Dean, and fights for humanity's freedom and the sake of free will on Dean's behalf.

3. What is their greatest weakness? What makes them weak?
Castiel's greatest weakness is his inclination toward self-hatred.

Due to his highly self-critical nature (related to his desire to be useful and his belief that he is always falling short) he tends to devalue himself, which leads to him indirectly being inconsiderate of others. He never spends time with his friends, for instance, which leaves Dean in particular to feel devalued. It also pushes Castiel to a higher than normal propensity for self-sacrifice, since he feels his life is of less value than those around him.

What makes Castiel weak is his fanatic pseudo-religious attachment to his ideals. This isn't to say that his ideals themselves are necessarily wrong, per se, but he accepts no flexibility toward himself. He cannot forgive himself for his perceived sins, and becomes tunnel-visioned when attempting to fix them. This leads him into making rash decisions, including trusting those who don't have his best interests at heart, which results in further fallout— and even more for Castiel to self-flagellate over.

4. What would be their worst way to die?
Pointlessly.

If we're talking about method: Burning to death by holy fire. All angels have a weakness to holy fire (created by burning holy oil), and although Castiel is currently mortal, this isn't something he'll be soon to forget. In general, though, he fears any slow and painful death. Castiel once begs for a "quick death" while being tortured as a mortal, so it seems he's rather weak to physical pain when he can feel it. As an angel he rarely acts with deference to fear of pain, but this is mostly because he cannot normally experience it. (Holy fire would be one exception.)

Eventually, as he remains mortal, his worst way to die will probably develop toward something that exploits his "human" weakness, such as developing a fatal illness.

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